Remember the ultimate snowball? I had that sucker right there in front of me at my feet. Healthy habits were stacked so slowly that they were no longer habits, they were just a part of my life. This was the new me.
This journey, this transformation, this whatever-you-want-to-call-it has changed my life. I was holding my head up. I was confident in the decisions I was making. My life was coming together. Add in a new little human, a move, and a complete shift from what I was doing for work to the confidence that sparked FINALLY pursuing what I wanted to do. My thoughts were clear. My family was benefitting from this as well.
Before all of this, I'd get in this awful never-ending spiral of negative thoughts about getting everything done, not asking for help, resenting others for not offering to help and doing everything perfectly. It's important to note how much work I put in outside of exercise and nutrition.
I did the deep work.
The work we don't realize we need to do until we've really dug into it. The work that will allow us to continue moving forward. The work that continues to hold the snowball together.
I still do this deep work. But, at this point, I know my values because I spent time thinking about what I value. I've felt deep shame, disappointment, guilt, hurt, and fear. Because of this, the way I process thoughts and emotions is far different from how I used to handle all of this.
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